Today I woke up with little energy. For breakfast, my beautiful and loving wife made me 2 eggs with some tomatillos, onions, zucchini, and herbs. I also had coffee, some frozen peaches from last year and an unripe pear; no headache today.
After breakfast, I headed to our houses on N. 41st Street. On my way I had to take a detour because one of the blocks was shut down near our houses, due to a shooting. I am not sure if it was domestic or gang related, but it was a grim reminder of the uphill battle we are in.
We didn’t have much of a plan to work on today, since we are still waiting on floor plans for the first house and the yard is being maintained. Our goal is to help revitalize our inner city one neighborhood at a time. Westside Church (with Abide Network) has adopted two houses in North Central Omaha. We sat on the steps and made a plan for some ways to engage with the neighbors. We will start enacting our plan next week. I don’t want to talk at length about our God-sized plan for that area now, but the job does seem impossible and I don’t feel I am qualified for the huge task I have been called to.
I lack energy. I see so many obstacles. I feel the weight of our city, the poverty, the apathy; it’s a heavy weight. I see a few who want a heavenly reality now, a garden city where there is no violence, no poverty. I see a few who want something better than what is. I think we all want something better, but that day will never come unless we work together and have a unifying vision for what God’s kingdom actually is (I will write much more on this tomorrow). I am okay with that which stands in the way. As I look back over the past few years I see great progress, though in the moment it feels differently. Wait for the Lord whose day is near. Wait for the Lord; be strong, take heart.
Today I will rest. For lunch, I had a left over lamb arm steak, a few small half-ripe apples, tomatoes, zucchini, onion, and herbs.
Tonight will be different. Tonight I am officiating a wedding. Tonight I will let go of the worries of the world and celebrate two lives becoming one. Tonight will be a wonderful reminder of the Great Meal to come. I will join in their celebration around a ceremony and a meal. Tonight I will celebrate with anticipation knowing that better days are coming to this place.